Day 1 Again
It's the summer of 2024. My son starts camp today. I came from the men's summit. Had an incredible Father's Day. All the more reminder that my priority is God, my wife, my son. I found myself going into the summit feeling like . . . I'm really looking for connection. I want to be included. These are feelings that I have often and have struggled with often. There are moments that I start to feel envious and unseen when I know I have come a long way and God sees me. I know it in my head but I fight to feel it in my heart. I can write it off as a struggle for attention but I do wonder what is underneath it. I came to the conclusion that the emotional intimacy I know I need, but run away from, that what is available to me I discard it because it comes in a form that doesn't meet my expectation is a reflection of where I am with God. God I know I have not pursued you. Yes, the reality of the season is that it is much harder than before. I...